Venus

Dan's in Ithaca today and I'm a bit jealous. They didn't put him up at the Statler Hotel on campus though. He's downtown at a Hampton Inn overlooking Wal-Mart. All I want is some produce from Wegman's.

My kidney still hurts. Day 4 on antibiotics. I think I've drank like four bottles of cranberry juice. Can't mix vitamins with the antibiotics.

I still have yet to shower.

I still have yet to leave the house this week. I need to get my nails done. Luckily I'm waxed.

I watched the movie Venus last night with Peter O'Toole and it was a truly wonderful film.

O'Toole does look a bit like that fucked up person/thing in the Hannibal Lechter movies.

I've watched massive amounts of TV during my sick days...Private Practice, Brothers & Sisters, Desperate Housewives, LA Ink, SVU. Love it.

Shannon - is it true that LOST isn't starting untilFebruary?

My oh so fabulous graphic designers - Lewis Creative - have put together an awesome first look at my logo. Too bad all the domain names I've wanted...AMPR, AM Communications, Rise PR, Rise Communications are all taken. What to do. What to do.

T.I. is an asshole. Machine guns? Really.

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Loopy

I have a kidney infection and it sucks. I went to the urologist yesterday. The nausea I was experiencing last week is due to this. Last night I took Nyquil pills to fall asleep and I'm all fucked in the head today. Seriously out of it. The Lunesta is not helping so much these days.

I think I'm over my burrito kick.

I've been reading a lot of magazines again. My newest fave is Fast Company. I just ordered a subscription.

Coffee tastes like shit today. I've made two pots, but nothing will satisfy. My tastebuds must be off.

This weather is oh so beautiful and fabulous. Too bad this month seriously sucks.

My dad found a place to live. Hooray. It's near Peter's high school in that god-awful town of Shrub Oak. At least Peter doesn't have to switch schools again. It'll be nice to have a place to go to chill with my family again. Amy's freaking out that Dad and Dogface will still continue their relationship. She told me if that's the case she's going to try and get a restraining order. Now I don't know the legalese involved with such a thing, but I do know my sister, and if Dogface comes on Amy's turf she will be attacked. My sister will fuck her up. No doubt.

I guess my Dad has been sleeping in Amy's bedroom of late and has moved a majority of his stuff in. Amy has been staying with Andrew as a result. It seems as soon as he signed the lease on the new place, Dogface allowed him to move back in. She obviously plays games. BUT WHY WOULD HE MOVE BACK IN? Argh. My sister is bugging out with fear that he and Dogface will be on again and she will be sleeping over the new place. I'm trying to get Amy to not freak out, but I do see her concern.

Gettin' All Political

A few years ago I rather begrudgingly voted for Gore...I don't know, he's a bit Hollywood and Tipper bugs me...then Kerry...I wasn't even close to being in love...and now I'm totally behind Barack Obama even though I know in my heart of hearts that he's going to be left in Hillary's dust. This country is far more prepared for a woman president than a Black one. Please - as two female authors blogged yesterday - what's up with the noose again?

Anyway, Gore's Nobel Prize win has the Democratic Party with their fingers crossed that he will announce his presidential run in the eleventh hour. I would really like to hear/see it. Bottom line, I don't want Hillary as president...though I truly believe she will be one.

I'm petrified of Giuliani and he like married his cousin. Mitt Romney is frankly too waspy. And McCain is just crazy. And then there is the Law & Order guy with the "I don't want to be called a trophy" wife.

What the hell happened to Howard Dean? Did that funny shriek he made really ruin him forever?

My Living Will

Last night, my friend and I were sitting in the living room and I said to her,
"I never want to live in a vegetative state, dependent on some machine and fluids from a bottle. If that ever happens, just pull the plug."

She got up, unplugged the TV, and threw out my wine.

She's such a bitch...

And THEN There Is This Bullshit

My ultimate man- Anthony Kiedis - and he knocks-up a 20-year-old who is just O.K. looking. She had the baby. I believe it's a boy. Her body language reminds me of my sister's.

I miss her

We're all beginning to feel it. There is a certain sadness to my aunt these days and yesterday I got a call from my Uncle Frankie (in Aussie) who told me he's feeling very depressed of late. He can't stop dreaming of her.

Yesterday I was angry and hostile. I yelled and bitched. I seem to have this unshakeable crankiness these day.

My sister spent the last week here and left on Saturday. I miss her too. It was nice to wakeup and have someone here. She's maturing. It's nice to have an adult relationship with her even though I still try and hold her hand when we cross the street. I still jump into her bed in the morning when she's sleeping and wrap my arms around her as if she is this little-bitty thing. To feel that sorta love for someone is crazy. Our relationship grows in different ways and it's so refreshing to have her to talk to. My relationship with my mother had changed significantly before she died. We could talk about so much for hours. And I finally felt after all of those years that I wasn't a disappointment to her.